When did I start tracking cycles? When did we get to a point where we obsessively worried about a period so much and waited for it to pass while making sure our food was right even during period. A period without ice cream and junk food? Never thought that would happen. Friday feels like it is far away. RE appointment this week and I haven’t looked forward to anything so much other than our wedding day haha. My neighbor was sweet yesterday giving me suggestions about keeping baby pictures in our room that will remind me to take better care of my body through the process. Also how it is like having a vision board reminding us where this journey is going and that all that we are doing will be worth it in the end 🙂
Everything sounds nice. I just am anxious about what the RE might say. When I see my friends IVF process take forever and the 101 hurdles through the process it just worries me that it might take really long for us as well. Not like the last 2-3 years have been easy for us.
The focus this week as always has shifted to the other person in my family who got pregnant recently. Either I hear how people feel bad for me or hear about her and the pregnancy all day which really isn’t what I want to hear right now. I’ve written this before and I know this is not a competition. Our bodies are different but how do you explain that to your brain who goes into alert, angry and self hating mode every time you hear someone got pregnant easily.
I have all the respect in the world now for people who are having a tough time in their TTC journeys and can’t help but pray that we all are showered with happiness of holding a tiny little miracle.
Please do keep us in prayers.